I wasted so many years of my life obsessing about what I SHOULD look like that I actually forgot to enjoy who I was.
Back when I was in my late teens/early 20’s I was over training (like 2+ hours a day every day) and under eating – all for what?
From the outside I was considered ‘Fit’ and ‘Healthy’. Yeah sure I was fit as fuck but healthy? I’m not so sure –all I would think about is the food I ate and how I can burn it off, scrolling through ‘fitspo’ social media accounts thinking ‘I want to look like that’…
We have all done it and again I ask all for what?? Social acceptance? Will people like me better if I look a certain way? Will I gain more likes? Followers? I know once I look like that I’ll be happy and I’ll love my body and myself. – Right?
BUT just because someone has abs or a thigh gap doesn’t mean they are happy.
Fast-forward to my mid 20’s comp prep was one of the most overwhelming and emotional roller coasters I’d ever been on. Again considered healthy because I was eating ‘clean’ and had a six-pack but was I healthy? I mean I had the ‘ideal’ body that you can only get through strict diet and exercise which means I’m healthy? Right? Missing social functions, crying over food and having my whole life revolve around nothing but what I consumed and when I trained was NOT healthy. Not only that but once I got this ‘ideal’ body I wasn’t f*cking happy either.
There is a common occurrence here and it just drives me crazy – both scenarios I was considered healthy BUT I wasn’t, my mental health was clearly unhealthy.
This overwhelming pressure we put upon ourselves to be ‘healthy’ is just f*cked.
Once I shifted my mindset to loving training and the way it made me feel (not the way it made me look) is when my world shifted, my body (in my eyes) changed – it become what I was always looking for – confidence emerged – I stood up taller, felt stronger and finally mentally and physically healthy.
I’m the worlds biggest sweet tooth so when I want something sweet I’ll eat it… that’s considered ‘unhealthy’ and ‘bad’ but I the fact that I no longer obsess about it, try and burn it off or stop eating to ‘make up for it’ in my eyes is in fact healthy.
So I’ll have my cake and eat it too, without even battering my eyelids.
The social image of healthy needs to change because it isn’t what it seems and it is setting the wrong imagine in our brains, especially when we see it over and over and over again.
I’m a personal trainer – I love chocolate, Thai food and pizza. I love going out & getting pissed with my friends with guaranteed dancing until all hours of the morning. I’m not a morning person. I don’t wake up bright eyed and bushy tailed then go for a run then eat my acai bowl. I usually wake up run to the toilet then make my vegemite and avocado muffin looking like Hagrid. I love lifting heavy weights and pilates. I hate cardio but do it (occasionally) because I love sweating and the vibes I feel afterwards. I have days where I just don’t want to human and days where I absolutely crush sh*t. I’m real, honest and happy but most importantly confident in myself and the way I look. I don’t feel the need to hide who I am as a person and portray myself as someone I’m not just to have the label of what’s socially seen and accepted as ‘healthy’.
We shouldn’t feel bad because we don’t have a flat stomach, eat ‘paleo’ or ‘clean’ 100% of the time.
The only thing that matters at the end of the day is that you f*cking love yourself.
Stay Strong & Stretch,